Updates

I had such good intentions with this blog, but life. The Friday night after I posted that last blog post, I was chatting with Zach on what to blog about; brainstorming and picking out pictures. My big kids had slept at my parents house that night and I intended to spend that Saturday morning working on photography stuff. Instead we ended up being admitted to the hospital for three days with our little Ella.

When I tell you that it was the scariest parenting moment I have ever had in my life, I mean that. It takes a lot to scare me. Overall, I’m a pretty chill, “it’s probably fine,” kind of parent. But when she grabbed the handle on that fresh cup of coffee and dumped the entire scalding mug on her tiny little body, I was terrified. Her screams pierced through me. It’s taken me months to get them out of my head. When I got her out of her sleeper and saw skin hanging I joined her in screaming.

It’s taken me a while to get back into my groove. I’ve kept up on my project and continued picking up my camera, but I have slacked on almost all of my other business-y goals. I just got into such a slump of trying to make sure she was ok, watching her like a hawk, and being an anxious mess over it in a way that I’ve never felt when it came to parenting.

We were so lucky in that although it was a pretty large area that she burned, we were able to get her burn treatments. Already, just about six weeks out, most of it has healed and you can hardly see it anymore. They don’t think she will have any scarring and I’m just so thankful that she’s ok.

So, life keeps moving. I keep thinking back to this time last year, when we were waiting on her arrival. I remember being so afraid wondering if my midwife would be able to come to the house, worried about this virus that we didn’t know anything about. That dreamlike state when you are so pregnant that it’s miserable, but it also feels like floating between two worlds, the now and the future. Except you have no control over when or how that future happens, only the baby does. And all along it was our Ella.

Anyway, all that to say that I’m getting back to work, so be on the lookout for new blog posts packed with pictures that don’t make my Insta feed, probably some snippets of our weeks, and some work stuff. Remember I have promotions going on all year for birth photography and documentary photography so hit me up if that’s something you’re interested in!